I know nightmares are common in PTSD, but how do you know if what haunts you in your sleep is real or not? I always told myself that if it wasn't something I'd remembered during the day then it wasn't real. But the nightmare I had last week feels so real that I find it … Continue reading ambiguity

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I'm trying to settle my nerves but haven't been sleeping well at all since the visit on Saturday even though I take meds to help with it. I thought leaving them behind would change everything. Apparently not. The drive to my Auntie's was good except for the waves of panic that would suddenly envelop me … Continue reading not better


My aunt and uncle are arriving today. I woke up this morning and had the deepest sense of dread. I've been trying to get my work done, but my mind keeps drifting to thoughts of them. They feel too close. I don't want them here. Technically the house we live in belongs to my parents, … Continue reading arrival