change…it’s slow and hard work

Everything feels forced. Thoughts. Feelings. Life in general, I suppose. I don't want to be around anyone or anything. Don't feel much like talking either. I don't even know what I'm going to post about because things are rapidly shifting inside and I can't seem to focus on any one thing. I broke down and … Continue reading change…it’s slow and hard work

it’s hard to love

Most days I feel as though on some level my parents hated me. As though they were happy just having my brother and I was this giant mistake that they never really wanted. I feel like I've always somehow been a disappointment to them. Like I will always be a disappointment to them. I was … Continue reading it’s hard to love


I've had nightmares for as long as I can remember. When I was little I would bury my face in my pillow and cry myself to sleep because I was afraid to close my eyes. They come and go. Sometimes they last a few days and then fade away for a little while. Sometimes they … Continue reading nightmares