too exposed

I'm feeling tired lately. I find that when I'm tired, I also feel a bit sensitive to the things that are being said around me and about me. It feels like society has very little patience for expressing emotions and truth. This leads to invalidating experiences at every turn and when it happens I have …

memories

When things like the things that happened, happen, it feels as though you are exposed constantly. You lose all sense of privacy when your entire being is violated. Afterwards, it feels as though everyone can see right through you and they just know what happened. I don’t know how they know, it just feels that …

gone

Can't say how I got here but to my past I'm feeling bound this battle plan that was drawn for me leaves me crashing to the ground I have tried not to mind it tried so very hard I tell myself it does not hurt this pain inside that carves out scars You aren't there …

too much ocean

I thought I was finally doing okay with T being away. Not great, but okay. It was way too hot for a freckly face so I pulled the boys out of school on Friday and we spent the day at the beach. Saturday, I was outside all day doing yard work (hard work always changes my …

on raising children…

I've spent my entire life hiding my past from others, but it's been become much more difficult since becoming a parent. It's hard being a parent. Everything about having children changes us and forces us to change in ways we never imagined. Some of the changes have been good for me, but some of them …

wishing Sunday was a repeat of Saturday

I'm glad this was the last weekend (until next year anyways) where we're supposed to celebrate our parents and all the wonderful things they've done for us. It's hard to be grateful for the people who caused, and in some cases are still causing, so much of the pain in your life. I feel like …