I have never been the type of person who took a lot of medication--prescription or otherwise. However, since my lupus diagnosis I’ve had to adjust my thought process when it comes to trying to keep myself as healthy as possible. In my mind pills always carried the stigma of me not doing good enough. It … Continue reading are these meds working?
Well, I guess she isn't a new psychiatrist because other then when I was inpatient last fall I'd never spoken to a psychiatrist in my life. She's more like my first psychiatrist.....and she's fabulous! Which I already knew of course because we went to high school together. We never really hung out, but we would … Continue reading I have a new psychiatrist
I tried really hard last week to settle into working from home, helping the youngest try to keep up with some schoolwork (we're back to online learning indefinitely) and being a mother all at the same time. There are so many memes about how to make the best of this time and loads of advice … Continue reading ramblings part 2,365,874
I DON'T THINK PEOPLE UNDERSTAND HOW STRESSFUL IT IS TO EXPLAIN WHAT'S GOING ON IN YOUR HEAD WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND IT YOURSELF. YOU KNOW THAT YOU NEED TO LET GO, BUT YOU CAN'T, BECAUSE YOU'RE STILL WAITING FOR THE IMPOSSIBLE TO HAPPEN...unknown author These things that have happened, they've ruined everything. My life, … Continue reading things I should probably tell my therapist but most likely won’t–feeling sorry for myself
I feel like I am just buying time, as though we really aren't supposed to be here. There is always a part of me that feels like I need permission just in order to exist in this world because we've never had the opportunity to just be. Some days I feel like stepping off the … Continue reading rambles
It's been a bit since I've posted here. I feel like everything and nothing has happened all at the same time. I still haven't talked to M. Pretty soon it's going to be a year and while I try to tell myself it will get better it's quite hard to feel positive about that situation. … Continue reading updates and more art