update

I don't want to talk much about my mental health in this post because I'm not entirely sure what to say but I did want to post an update on my appointment with the obesity doctor I had yesterday. Let me just start by saying she was absolutely amazing and so easy to talk to …

still here, still struggling

Well, here we are again. Trying to patiently wait for something we aren't quite sure even exists. Life is hard, yet we continue to put one foot in front of the other. Perhaps our will to live currently outweighs that of dying. We've been trying to be more honest in therapy and it's hard. The …

the shadow is back

It felt like things had been slowly getting back to what I can only say feels like a bit of normalcy. But another bad nightmare, plus some other things happening and we're back in the land of the darkness again. Hmmm where to begin. About a month ago, I got offered a new job. It's …

medication and weight gain

My weight has always been something I've struggled with. I have no dreams of being skinny--I don't think that's even an option for me--I just want to be able to move more freely. Take up a little less space, you know, and feel comfortable in my own skin. Since the fall of 2020, I've gained …

doing DBT and meeting a new specialist

So I'm going to be starting DBT at the beginning of March. I don't really know what to expect but as with anything new I'm trying not to let my nerves get the better of me. The woman I spoke with--Michelle--didn't seem very keen on doing one-to-one DBT with me and during our first call …

are these meds working?

I have never been the type of person who took a lot of medication--prescription or otherwise. However, since my lupus diagnosis I’ve had to adjust my thought process when it comes to trying to keep myself as healthy as possible. In my mind pills always carried the stigma of me not doing good enough. It …