Tuesday Wishes

therapy woes–cancelling appointments

Sometimes, the best thing for you is the very thing you'd do anything to avoid. That's kind of the place I find myself in today. I've decided to cancel my therapy appointment on Wednesday and am contemplating cancelling Friday as well. I e-mailed T to let him know and I know he'll want to know …

Would a letter hold the key?

I've been thinking about doing something for a while now, but things just feel a little too overwhelming at the moment. I know I need to get to a point where things feel a little bit settled before deciding whether or not I will move forward with my plan, but it's still been milling around …

therapy woes–building and keeping connection

I find most relationships to be agonizingly painful. They don't feel secure to me. I am not good at communicating my needs and am afraid of genuine closeness because I don't really know when someone is trustworthy enough. I wholeheartedly see myself as completely unworthy of love. T says my ability to connect is faulty …

therapy woes–my heart and brain are miles apart

It will be three years in February that I first stepped foot in my T's office. I wasn't sure what was going to happen in the first few months but never did I imagine I would still be there after three years. We started at once per week but about a year or so after …

Tuesday’s Feels

After a brief warm-up, it's a snowy Tuesday morning. Maybe we should have stayed in bed.