ambiguity

I know nightmares are common in PTSD, but how do you know if what haunts you in your sleep is real or not? I always told myself that if it wasn't something I'd remembered during the day then it wasn't real. But the nightmare I had last week feels so real that I find it … Continue reading ambiguity

arrival

My aunt and uncle are arriving today. I woke up this morning and had the deepest sense of dread. I've been trying to get my work done, but my mind keeps drifting to thoughts of them. They feel too close. I don't want them here. Technically the house we live in belongs to my parents, … Continue reading arrival