spirals…

I struggle so much to convey what it's like to be me. Words are the invisible ties that unite us to one another but when they are lost I feel disconnected. Everything feels 'too much'. Feelings aren't supposed to be so overwhelming. I didn't know you could feel like this. I certainly don't know how you …

rocky roads

It's been quite the rocky road since T has come back. There's been a lot of adjustments and to be honest I'm not having the easiest time of it. As T pointed out many moons ago, any change for me when it comes to him is absolutely catastrophic. Where we stand now there are 5 more …

happy birthday M

Today M turns 10. My little boy is growing up and has now entered double-digits. I have no idea where the last 10 years have gone and feel like I've missed so much even though I've been here the whole time. It's been 5 months since M hasn't lived with me. I would be lying …