do I live a borderline life?

Back in October when I was hospitalized, the psychiatrist on staff told me that I had borderline personality disorder. He told me I had other diagnoses as well--complex trauma, anxiety, depression--but the borderline diagnosis really stuck in my head. I mentioned it all to T but he's not one to really discuss labels and feels …

when other people think they know best

I've been struggling with some of the side effects of my medication for awhile now, mostly weight gain, and it's not doing anything to make me feel better about myself physically. At my last appointment with my physician he told me I could reduce my Seroquel if I wanted to and knowing that is has …

two years

To my beautiful M. It's been two years since you've lived with me and 53 days since I've talked to you or seen your handsome face. You're growing up so fast and I feel like I am missing all of the important parts of your life. I imagine your voice will soon be changing and …

when your weeks are tough

Last week was quite a rough week and I'm glad for it to be over. On a whim I'd decided I'd write my brother a letter last Sunday. I've been looking for answers that neither I nor T can find. I'm not sure exactly what I hope my brother can say to me but perhaps …