mishmash

Feeling frustrated today. On the verge of rage--if it truly is rage--that defies words but combines anger, frustration, sadness and anxiety. This is a new feeling for me and I felt irritated all weekend at even the minor things in life. Everything feels like sandpaper under my skin. No matter what I do, it all …

things I should probably tell my therapist but most likely won’t–feeling sorry for myself

I DON'T THINK PEOPLE UNDERSTAND HOW STRESSFUL IT IS TO EXPLAIN WHAT'S GOING ON IN YOUR HEAD WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND IT YOURSELF. YOU KNOW THAT YOU NEED TO LET GO, BUT YOU CAN'T, BECAUSE YOU'RE STILL WAITING FOR THE IMPOSSIBLE TO HAPPEN...unknown author These things that have happened, they've ruined everything. My life, …

on the really bad days–a letter to T

Some days are just really bad days. Sometimes it feels like the bad days are never going to end and I'll be stuck with them for the rest of my life--like they are branded deep into my bones. I don't feel as though I'm good at emotions--having them, understanding them or expressing them. I get …