Final Letters to T

I've been contemplating writing here for a while now but I'm not entirely sure what to say or how to describe the way things feel at the moment. We're entering the final stage of sessions with T - 3 more left to be exact. I don't know how things will look when March 25th is …

feeling the feelings

The sadness does not knock—it slips beneath the door,a hush in the hallway,a shadow in the warm light. I sit and feel the air thicken,like clouds gatheringwithout a single sound. I am struggling to deal with all of this. It's not like I never expected to end therapy, it's just that I thought it would …

9 sessions

9 sessions. I found out today that's all I have left of in-person sessions before T moves away. I don't remember him saying that his last day was October 31st--he said he told me--so he either said it, and I completely forgot, or he forgot to tell me the date. Either way, it doesn't matter …

answers

I'm trying not to get my hopes up but it feels like we might actually be getting somewhere with M. I received a report last week from a psychologist who reviewed the Ontario Child Health Study Emotional Behavioural Scales (OCHS-EBS) that both M and I completed. This is what he concluded: M scored very high …

It’s All Ending

I feel...devastated. Today was literally the worst therapy appointment in my history of therapy appointments. So let's just get down to it, shall we. T and his wife are moving at least 8 hours away. He isn't sure when, but it won't be too long now. They want to be closer to their kids and …

Why do I still cry at therapy breaks and other things

The heading of this post says it all, doesn't it. Yesterday T told me he'd be gone from mid-May till the beginning of June. I got really quiet afterwards. He let it sit for a bit and then he asked me what had happened because one minute we were chatting about things and the next …