on the cusp of a new beginning

It's been a while since I've gone and disappeared again. I miss my blog but sometimes it's just easier to stay away. As I once told T, sometimes writing is not very cathartic and actually makes me feel worse about some of the situations I find myself in. I can't believe we are almost at …

4 weeks

It's been 4 weeks since M came to stay with me. It's turning out to look like a more permanent thing as it feels like his father has basically written him off entirely. It's been an adjustment but we're getting there slowly. C is not doing well with it at all but I've had him …

off the rails

It feels like everything with M is up in the air and going off the rails. His ODD is really rearing it's ugly head these days. Last Wednesday he got suspended from school for assaulting another kid (apparently it's not the first time he's pushed this kid). Then on Friday I got home from work, …

family drama

After my last posting about M I thought perhaps it was time for a proper update. And no, I unfortunately do not have any updates about M and how that situation is going. I sent him another text but once again it's gone unanswered. Where to begin... My last post was about my aunt dying. …

I think I f****d up

I know it's been awhile since I've posted on here and it's not that I haven't had anything to say. Rather, I think it's a case of indifference and exhaustion on my part that has me not really feeling like sharing with anyone. But I had a situation last night that I'm second guessing my …

a complicated death

My aunt, the one whose house I went to all those years ago, passed away late Wednesday. To say my feelings about the matter are complicated would be an understatement. I'm trying my best to keep busy so that my mind can focus on other things--things that don't remind me of what was all those …