weekends

Do you enjoy your weekends? Is it something you look forward to all week? At my session yesterday after speaking with T we've come to the realization that weekends are hard for us. They definitely aren't something ever looked forward to and actually tend to increase the amount of anxiety going on in life. T …

let’s talk about DNA–random thoughts of the day

Sometimes, I like to watch Law & Order: SVU. I probably shouldn't because it's triggering as hell but I like to watch them nail those guilty dirtbags to the wall. Anyways, today's episode was about DNA and whether or not the genes of a perpetrator can be passed on to their children. I remember a …

a haunted place

Many people who have experienced childhood sexual abuse use dissociation as a coping mechanism. Those of you who understand such things will hear me when I say that it feels like we were made for living through a pandemic. Due to circumstances beyond our control we were forced to become masters of survival, in total …

where’s the anger?

You carry both lightning and thunder in that space between your bones and soul. Become the storm you are hiding from, a hurricane does not hide from the rain. ~Nikita Gill At my last session, T and I spoke about how unfair things have been. While we were doing so he also told me that …

to matter more

This might be short or it might be long. I have no idea really. I've been having an incredibly difficult time the last little while and I simply need to write some things that have been coming up for me. It's hard to engage. It's hard to just be myself. What does that even mean-be …

a synopsis

**TW-sexual abuse, violence A few days ago, I went and trashed my last two posts. I don’t expect to be judged or scorned by anyone who follows my blog nor do I expect any of the people I write about to actually read my blog, so I still cannot figure out what the problem is …