dreams

I want to cease what no longer serves me rather than sink into isolation with struggle, disappointment, or fear. I don't want to be the one who lives with the burning shame, believing it was all her fault. She has given up on life and wants to destroy herself. I have spent so much time …

disappointments

Well, it's been a minute since I've written on here. I've been reading others' blogs but haven't had the energy to write anything myself. Things have been....different. I've had some disappointments over the last month and a half and I've slowly been working through it all. Firstly, I lost my obesity doctor. She decided to …

family drama

After my last posting about M I thought perhaps it was time for a proper update. And no, I unfortunately do not have any updates about M and how that situation is going. I sent him another text but once again it's gone unanswered. Where to begin... My last post was about my aunt dying. …

I think I f****d up

I know it's been awhile since I've posted on here and it's not that I haven't had anything to say. Rather, I think it's a case of indifference and exhaustion on my part that has me not really feeling like sharing with anyone. But I had a situation last night that I'm second guessing my …

a complicated death

My aunt, the one whose house I went to all those years ago, passed away late Wednesday. To say my feelings about the matter are complicated would be an understatement. I'm trying my best to keep busy so that my mind can focus on other things--things that don't remind me of what was all those …

update

I don't want to talk much about my mental health in this post because I'm not entirely sure what to say but I did want to post an update on my appointment with the obesity doctor I had yesterday. Let me just start by saying she was absolutely amazing and so easy to talk to …