ramblings part 2,365,874

I tried really hard last week to settle into working from home, helping the youngest try to keep up with some schoolwork (we're back to online learning indefinitely) and being a mother all at the same time. There are so many memes about how to make the best of this time and loads of advice …

weekends

Do you enjoy your weekends? Is it something you look forward to all week? At my session yesterday after speaking with T we've come to the realization that weekends are hard for us. They definitely aren't something ever looked forward to and actually tend to increase the amount of anxiety going on in life. T …

why do you tell me to be in touch if you aren’t going to answer me?

T constantly tells me to be in touch if I need him. While I try my best not to be in touch (because I think it's important that he gets some time to himself) when I do reach out it's because I need something I can't get for myself and am basically feeling on the …

trapped

Time is moving so slowly at the moment that I'm not entirely sure whether it's even moving at all. I feel lost, disconnected from this thing called life. Where has everyone gone and what does it mean? I feel so infinitely small like a tiny speck of dust floating in the air. Will I ever …

let’s talk about DNA–random thoughts of the day

Sometimes, I like to watch Law & Order: SVU. I probably shouldn't because it's triggering as hell but I like to watch them nail those guilty dirtbags to the wall. Anyways, today's episode was about DNA and whether or not the genes of a perpetrator can be passed on to their children. I remember a …

let’s talk about shame

T and I have been talking about shame. He tends to get 'a little hot under the collar' as he likes to say when I tell him I feel ashamed for all the things that happened. The shame. It comes from so many different things--they told me it was my fault, they told me nobody …