obesity

I have been overweight my entire life. Having freckles and wearing glasses just added to the multitude of names my cousins could come up to insult me with as we were growing up. Nobody ever did anything to stop it. And the weight continued to pile on. I've tried Weight Watchers numerous times, have had …

the shadow is back

It felt like things had been slowly getting back to what I can only say feels like a bit of normalcy. But another bad nightmare, plus some other things happening and we're back in the land of the darkness again. Hmmm where to begin. About a month ago, I got offered a new job. It's …

awkward coversations

Have you ever had those really awkward conversations with your therapist? Well, I broke down and told him about my horrible self-image issues with all the weight I've gained since I've started on my current meds. He was very nice and understanding--like always--but it still felt really uncomfortable. Two new issues came up during our …

medication and weight gain

My weight has always been something I've struggled with. I have no dreams of being skinny--I don't think that's even an option for me--I just want to be able to move more freely. Take up a little less space, you know, and feel comfortable in my own skin. Since the fall of 2020, I've gained …

doing DBT and meeting a new specialist

So I'm going to be starting DBT at the beginning of March. I don't really know what to expect but as with anything new I'm trying not to let my nerves get the better of me. The woman I spoke with--Michelle--didn't seem very keen on doing one-to-one DBT with me and during our first call …

rambles

I feel like I am just buying time, as though we really aren't supposed to be here. There is always a part of me that feels like I need permission just in order to exist in this world because we've never had the opportunity to just be. Some days I feel like stepping off the …