my penguin

Last week T asked me to think and write about ways I thought it would be possible for me to remember him when we aren't together. He explained that some people remember his face or his voice and then can hear or visualize him saying something. That was their way of keeping him with them. … Continue reading my penguin


It feels like I am sloshing my way through some muddy waters in therapy lately. Most of the time I end up feeling like I need to be dragged along because I can't seem to keep up. Don't get me wrong, the speed of my therapy sessions would be somewhere in the range of sloth-like, … Continue reading truths


We are at the end of week 7 and I do not seem to have settled into any sort of comfortable place. I find myself becoming quite overwhelmed over the smallest things leading me to spiral into quite dark places. Most days, out of nowhere, I get this sense that it would be better if … Continue reading nothing