weekends

Do you enjoy your weekends? Is it something you look forward to all week? At my session yesterday after speaking with T we've come to the realization that weekends are hard for us. They definitely aren't something ever looked forward to and actually tend to increase the amount of anxiety going on in life. T …

let’s talk about DNA–random thoughts of the day

Sometimes, I like to watch Law & Order: SVU. I probably shouldn't because it's triggering as hell but I like to watch them nail those guilty dirtbags to the wall. Anyways, today's episode was about DNA and whether or not the genes of a perpetrator can be passed on to their children. I remember a …

let’s talk about shame

T and I have been talking about shame. He tends to get 'a little hot under the collar' as he likes to say when I tell him I feel ashamed for all the things that happened. The shame. It comes from so many different things--they told me it was my fault, they told me nobody …

12 days

It would be an utter lie if I were to say that things have improved since my last posting. Quite the opposite actually. I'm not even sure where to begin but here goes... I went on my annual trip to visit my Auntie on September 28th. I'd been struggling immensely with thoughts of suicide for …

(un)happy father’s day

Sometimes he's called dad or daddy, pops or father and perhaps even old man. I don't know what to call mine, though. I wonder if sadistic f*@kbag would be accurate enough. Here we are again at Father's Day. The day set aside each year where we are supposed to tell the world how thankful we …