Christmas conversations

Conversations about Christmas with the ex's wife. I need to communicate with her because my ex won't talk to me and I'm not privy to M's cell number. Me: does M want to come to dinner on Thursday? Her: probably not...he has no interest Me: okay, thanks anyways Her: it would be nice for C …

rejection

Your whole life can change in a moment and you never even know when it's coming. After, everything is different...forever. I feel like I'm being torn apart...like no matter what I do or what I say somebody's going to get hurt. There comes a point when we need to make our own decisions. I just …

surrender

We are all mortal. We are all fragile. And we all live under the shadow of death. Sometimes the bravest thing we can do is admit we're not strong enough. They say progress is inevitable. In some ways we can look to the past as the time of our lives...or an ordeal to overcome. The …

exhausted

Everything that's ever happened is playing in my head constantly. I'm on the brink of exhaustion and I pray that tomorrow will be a different day. I'm trying to decide what to talk about but all I can come up with are empty thoughts. I feel an inherent tiredness that cannot be simply cured by …

the blahs

Well, it didn't rain and we didn't have a thunderstorm which means lightning didn't hit the tree beside our tent and I'm still here...sigh. We're leaving a day early still because they are calling for 20-30mm of rain which is good for the forest fire situation but not so good for tearing down a campsite …

tired

I sent T a text yesterday and I wanted to tell him more about what was going on for me but it all felt pointless. Instead it was the usual 'Dr. K?' followed eventually by his response a bit later 'I'm here'. I wouldn’t say things are absolutely horrific but I wouldn’t say they are …