Anxiety sucks

These days I find myself oscillating between anger and wanting to give up. Last week I wasn't doing so well due to an attack of severe dizziness and a surreal floating feeling. It got bad enough that I missed almost three days of work. I mentioned it to my doctor at my appointment last week …

my ex

I have sole custody of the boys. I make sure they get to school, feed them, clothe them, attend all school functions, take care of all of their medical appointments, help with 99% of their homework and take time off work when they are sick. It's nothing that I would consider spectacular. I am their …

Inner Demons

This song hits me right in the feels...... The fight is real. The struggle is constant. Fighting until the fight is gone. "Inner Demons" by Julia Brennan They say don't let them in Close your eyes and clear your thoughts again When I'm all alone, they show up on their own Cause inner demons fight …

don’t make me feel unimportant

I am not one of those people who sees my GP regularly. I'll usually wait until whatever is happening gets to a point where it's absolutely unbearable. So, when it comes to making appointments I expect a certain level of care. Lately though, I'm starting to worry that I'm not getting what I need. I …

I wish it were a beach day

I need warmth and sunshine, flip flops and my toes in the sand. I need my water and my beach. It is the place where the waves will carry away my worries and the landscape will remain unspoiled by all the harshness in this world.  It will help release the unrest that has been building …

My little family sometimes feels incomplete

I have two little boys that I would do absolutely anything for and love with all of my heart but sometimes it feels like something is missing. I'm not big on statistics. I've always fought against being a statistic--from my sexual abuse and other unfortunate things I have faced--and this is no exception. I know …