two sides

Note: This was written last fall after I was admitted to hospital and is largely unedited. It felt too vulnerable to post at the time, however I’m posting it now because I think that it's time (and T also just dropped the h bomb on me again--but we'll save that for another post...ugh) I have …

why do you tell me to be in touch if you aren’t going to answer me?

T constantly tells me to be in touch if I need him. While I try my best not to be in touch (because I think it's important that he gets some time to himself) when I do reach out it's because I need something I can't get for myself and am basically feeling on the …

truths

It feels like I am sloshing my way through some muddy waters in therapy lately. Most of the time I end up feeling like I need to be dragged along because I can't seem to keep up. Don't get me wrong, the speed of my therapy sessions would be somewhere in the range of sloth-like, …

the nightmare

It's taken me a couple of days to even type this post but I feel like I must because it's all a bit unnerving honestly. I know people have dreams about their therapists because I've read about it on their blogs. I also know T says that dreams/nightmares are important because it means that your …

Easter of firsts

Well, another Easter is in the books and I'm sure others would agree that it was an Easter like no other. For myself it was an Easter of a few firsts. The most obvious first was not being able to leave my house and go wherever I wanted. This year I also experienced a new …

life is tough sometimes

It's been almost a month since I've posted anything on my blog. I've come on here but I just ended up closing the page. Do you ever just stare at the computer screen and feel like you have absolutely nothing to say? That's sort of what's been happening to me the last little while. Don't …