falling again

I got another message regarding M yesterday. Apparently he does not want to see me on Christmas Day and does not care whether or not I give him any gifts or not.

I feel like I’ll always be someone he won’t want to talk to. I can’t take it back, what happened between his dad and I and I get the feeling that he’ll never need me again.

I know people say that eventually he’ll probably change his mind but it does nothing to curb the pain that I feel every time I’m reminded he wants nothing to do with me.

I have learned that texts and exchanges about M are huge triggers for me but this time instead of acting, I wrote and drew a bit. I still feel quite unsettled and on the verge of doing something stupid, but I’m working on it.

Anyways, here’s my latest work about M and I….