Amanda Krantz
I am trying to focus on one thing at a time. If I break the giant conglomerate that has formed on the inside into seemingly more manageable parts maybe it won’t be so overwhelming.
If the pain settles, the feelings will remain tucked safely away. I cannot permit these suffocating memories to destroy me.
I’m sitting in silence.
Scarcely breathing.
I do not move or speak in order to prevent disrupting my thoughts. If I stay still long enough perhaps I can connect to something or someone and prevent myself from floating away.
It Feels Complicated 
There is no easy way to reconcile what we have experienced. As adults, aware of how innocent and scared we really were as children, it is hard to come to terms with. It really puts into focus what was stolen from us. I have no advice to give on how to manage this, I’m still trying to figure it out myself; just letting you know you aren’t alone.
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