I am trying to focus on one thing at a time. If I break the giant conglomerate that has formed on the inside into seemingly more manageable parts maybe it won’t be so overwhelming.
If the pain settles, the feelings will remain tucked safely away. I cannot permit these suffocating memories to destroy me.
I’m sitting in silence.
I do not move or speak in order to prevent disrupting my thoughts. If I stay still long enough perhaps I can connect to something or someone and prevent myself from floating away.